Last week was a roller coaster of emotions for me, I have weekly sessions with a therapist and she helps me sort out my crazy. Our last two sessions were digging deep in my childhood traumas, painful memories being dug up impacted me both in a good and bad way. Let me elaborate, it was painful because honestly I thought that I moved on from these traumas but in all actuality I have only suppressed them. I metaphorically locked them in a box and hid the key. Speaking about it and putting it on the paper on my series of healing letters (healing letters may be a future project) has helped release and cleanse those traumas within me. Why would I put myself in that position of suffering and relive those painful memories you may ask, well it’s simple I want to be at peace with my past and heal.
This exercise was given to me from my therapist, but I have read it many times and the benefits of doing this exercise. You write a letter to someone that has hurt you in any way or even to the little you. I wrote a letter to my 9 year old self, that was the golden age where I painfully learned how toxic my home was, I lived in a home where addiction and abuse was normal. The letter was not easy at all, but what amazed me is how I remembered every detail of it, I could close my eyes and it was like I was watching a movie of my life replaying itself. The end result was me letting my 9 year old self know that none of that was my fault, I’ve been holding that guilt and hurt for over 25 years & I’m at peace with those dark parts of me because putting them out on paper and words has given light to them and allowed me to heal. I released my truths that I once hid from the world and myself and that is powerful to me.
If you have something that you want to bring light to, be at peace and finally heal from it instead of suppressing it adding to your emotional baggage. I encourage you to write a letter to that person or situation. Allow that healing for your growth and self care. If writing a letter is too much or not your thing find writing prompts, they can be easily found with google search or pinterest then you journal those prompts, what they are are is specific questions that allows you to stay focused on that topic etc. Michelle Obama has an amazing journal, “Becoming” which is a writing prompt journal. I’ve been using it for a few weeks now and it’s deep questions will promote the same outcome which is healing & your truths. Remember this is a gift to yourself of love so you can become a better version of yourself. Self work is hard work, but we will reap the benefits if we put that work in. No one else can do this for you, only yourself.
“Each of us has the power and responsibility to heal ourselves, to be our own medicine man or woman. Awakening our innate powers of being, loving, knowing, seeing, and healing involves ongoing work at all levels and in all dimensions of our self. Exploring the range of rhythms and emotions, achieving insights into our conditioning and ego, moving through the energy levels of spirit – these are all activities to be integrated into our daily lives.”
~ Gabrielle Roth